Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Welcome Back

I have taken a huge break from my blog and I will admit this is most of my fault but I’ve been busy with university and my friends are always very important to me. In the last couple of months I have really realized what I would like to do in the future in a career but this blog post won’t be about fashion or the latest trend or a campaign ad but more on a personal level. Usually I would not talk about a my personal  mess but I feel this is something better to get out through writing than just over thinking in life.

Breakups in 389 Words

This past weekend I went through a breakup and now that the storm has passed I have a clear mind on how irrational and unlike myself this situations brought me to. Most of my friends have gone through their share of heartbreaks and breakups which I usually confine them but this past weekend my perspective on how relationships work have really change. I’ve been the shoulder they needed to cry on and the number one person to say “fuck that, you are so much better”, “you deserve more”, “this is honestly his lost”; but now that I am on the receiving end all those classic saying mean nothing to me.

I’ve been in my share of relationships, and not having the best track record I am not the ideal relationship guy but this past relationship was different, very much different than my past ones. When we let our guards down and tear down the wall that we all try to build for a relationship that seems provident; we feel this is the right thing to do. But when things go sour we can’t help but put the blame on someone, at first you start to blame your partner but after the anger passes and the salvaging of the relationship is no longer an option you start on blaming yourself as you are the one who let yourself get hurt.

The hardest part is letting go of the guilt that starts to built up after a breakup, as we start to questions where things went wrong and go through the last conversation about a 100 times until life starts to feel real once again. All of this is much harder in our current culture since now we have something called social media which for those who are in relationships I’m sure also drives all of you a bit insane. Now days with Twitter and Facebook after a breakup you cannot help but stalk a bit and really get into what really happened or where think where things went wrong. But after all of this we are left to question ourselves on the type of person we would like to be. I strongly belief we change a bit after each relationship no matter how long or how deep it felt but its important not to change yourself too much but stay true to the person you love yourself for.